When the Doctor says “You’re Bipolar”

“I know what’s wrong with you”, The doctor said, as she folded her hands behind her head. “You’re Bipolar. You have Bipolar Disorder, Type II. That’s why the antidepressants you’ve been taking work great for awhile, then just STOP working. Your body chemistry must have a mood stabilizer to temper the antidepressant, or you’ll have to much serotonin. This shoots you up, and then you crash”. I sat there in silence, then pasted a well-practiced smile on my face… The mask that’s helped me coast publicly through long periods of misery… And said, “Well it’s good to know why the meds quit working… What’s the difference in Bipolar and Bipolar II?” She answered me with a somewhat condescending tone, “As a Bipolar II patient, you won’t experience the wild manias that are associated with Bipolar Disorder. Manias are where one goes on alcohol binges, spending sprees or engages in other risky behaviors. You instead have Hypomania, which includes severe irritability, insomnia, pressured speech and other milder but still invasive symptoms. As a Bipolar II, you also have more severe depressive episodes than someone with classic Bipolar Disorder.” She paused a second and looked at me meaningfully, then said “That’s why…

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“Say What You Mean and Mean What You Say” is on BLUNTmoms !

I am soooo incredibly excited to be featured on BLUNTmoms this week! Please go check out “Say What You Mean and Mean What You Say”and let me know what you think. I’m talking … Ok RANTING… About the misuse of mental health terms/diagnoses, like Bipolar, in general conversations…. FYI The weather is NOT Bipolar, thank you. I’m promoting the cessation of using these words in a negative manner, because it contributes to the stigma of having a mental illness and frequently shames people into suffering silently, rather than seeking helpful support and risking ridicule. Please share the essay from the BLUNTmoms page and let them know in a comment there if you like it! Hopefully they will let me come back and write for them again 🙂

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Running Post-Breast Augmentation

By: Jessica Azar Three days ago, on Monday, I went for my first run after having my implants placed. Running Post-Breast Augmentation is new territory for me… not too many articles online about it and no close friends who have braved it that I can ask. It was exactly one month to the day after I had the surgery… and although the Doctor had cleared me too for a run a week prior to this, I was still nervous about how it would feel… would I be sore? Would I feel like I had two waterbeds on my chest gurgling around? Would I have sharp pain of any kind? I also was concerned about how well I would be able to run after taking another month off from exercising… I had finally gotten back in the swing of running at the end of January, following a month-long hiatus due to lack of motivation and other things. Anytime I ever have to get started again, I always doubt myself…I doubt whether I will still be able to run as well as I did when I stopped running… and how badly my endurance has been affected. I worry that I wont get…

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